I want to commite suicide?

ok well a couple weeks aqo i qot my phone tooken uhp because i didnt wash dishes and my dad was looking threw it and he saw on my computer history thinqs as 'porn, marijuana,im so horny' and all this nonsence well if u have a facebook or myspace u know this **** pops up. and well i didnt search that i promise!. well he started lookinq threw my pictures and he saw this picture of this guys private thinq on my pictures and well i didnt ask for it! that night me and that guy got into an agurment and he said he was going to rape me and make me have his babies and he had a huge dick and he was going to kidnap me and i better have phone sex with him. and all this nonsence! well i called my freind after i hunq up on him and i wus tellinq her what he said and then he sent me a picture of his wener and put''see i told u i had a biq dick'' i told my freind and she said he sent a picture of that to her and she told me to send it to her and i was likee no ill get introuble ima delete it adn she sadi no save it and show e it when ever we hang out so i saved it. but i COMPLETLY forgot about it i never even showed her !!!!! and my dad also saw these pictures were i took ONE poof of a cigarate. ok let me tell u i regreted that the moment i did it! i dont know why i had the picture or why i took it. i wish i didnt do it but i wus curious. now my dad called the cops and they came and they made me tell them who gave it to me and after that everything cooled down and i ****** up again. i got on facebook...ONCE and i messaqed this guy and told him to text mee to my brother phone. now my dad was pissed. cuz i had gone out with him. but i felt so bad, i delted my facebook and myspace. i feel like its never going to be the same. i feel like im a **** uhp. everythinq is my fault. im so ****** stupid. the pain is killin me i cant even sleep ive been up all night its 7;02am i just wanna kill myself and not have to feel this pain. i jus wanna die its all my fault.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1